“And finally I twist my heart round again, so that the bad is on the outside and the good is on the inside, and keep on trying to find a way of becoming what I would so like to be, and could be, if there weren’t any other people living in the world”—Anne Frank (via itookadeepbreath)
Thank you text message that I just got from MC alert system, i wish i had gotten you earlier so I could have just stayed asleep…but no, you just came now when my ass is already out of bed doing this assignment for the class I may or may not have.
This is me swallowing my pride standing in front of you saying "I'm sorry" for that night...
Dear old friend,
I was reflecting about …well my life, everything, about people who have wronged me…and people who I have wronged. You fucked me over, you were a complete ass hole, you lied to everyone about me, you manipulated me, you led me on and in general you really just hurt me… But I was going over old IM conversations and facebook messages and came across some of yours. At one point, you tried to take it all back, after it had gotten all out of hand. But I felt like it was too late, everything had been said and done… I was so angry, I was so mad at you and I didn’t give you the chance to correct your mistakes with me. I was so harsh, and we know that you messed up, but you didn’t deserve all that. We were young, we were immature, it was high school.
So, “this is me swallowing my pride standing in front of you saying I’m sorry for that night.” Because even if you messed up, I was out of hand myself, you didn’t deserve all that I said. I’m sorry for blowing everything out of proportion and saying those nasty things. It is so hard for me to admit that I’m in the wrong sometimes, and its so hard for me to not only have to forgive you, but apologize to you. So, I hope that you don’t hold any grudges against me. Granted this apology is 4 years over due, and you probably most likely won’t ever see this, and maybe you’d forgotten about all those things with me, but I just wanted to say I’m sorry, and I guess this is a little selfish because its a part of my fixing myself, but I really am sorry for being such a bitch, when you were trying to correct your mistakes. Its way overdue, but its about time that I let this go. Hope you’re doing well.